Feeling Left Out

So how is it going in the world of summer vacation? I wish I knew, I wish I could have the fun I had last year, I wish I had money to show from my 6 month co-op, I wish I didnt NEED to get another job while being in classes and doing work-study. How sad my life has become. I am not the girl I use to be, I know that. Work and school and bills and the hurtful things people/family can do to you have made me grow up and I hate it. I dont know what else I have to say other than I feel left behind, or maybe I went too fast, grew up too fast. Either way life isnt fun anymore, not at all, not like it use to be. Now the little things are all i strive for, time to see friends, time for family, time to myself. I dont know, I am talking for no reason. I just know that it is over, my childhood, my adolescence, my fun years are gone and all I have now is the realization that I will be an adult for the rest of my life. Everyone may think they feel the same, but i doubt it. You probably still get some pleasure out of the things you once enjoyed, I dont. It's sad really and I dont know how to explain it, I am just not who I use to be. But for better or for worse, this is who I have become.