Overwhelmed

I dont know why, but it seems like just as life begins to get a little easier for me i realize i have a million things to do. I am so overwhelmed. Besides the fact that i am a full time college student trying to get good grades for PA school in classes I suck at like Genetics, Calc 2 and Advanced Writing, I have two jobs! Why is it that I always have TWO jobs? Must be the simple fact that I am poor, so ridiculously poor and i must save up money for my future apartment and possibly bringing my car into the city. Quiting a job is not an option! And yet I still cannot understand how those around me do not have even one job. They spend tons of time on homework and studying and excel in classes, where as I always scrape by with a B. I could get A's, all A's. I know if I applied myself, I am smart enough. But I just do not have the time! I also have Dr.'s appointments constantly which take up more time, and i bet i travel on average 5-6 hours a week on the T. I cant even do anything on the T, like read or write, b/c i get really really motion sick. If that isnt enough I have a life, somewhere. Friends i like to see and a boyfriend who i might hang out with on the weekends. Parents who I never call and a sister who i NEED to call to keep in check. All I want at this point is to be in bed by 10 every night. I am always so exhausted. But of course it is now about 1am and I am not asleep, but up typing a 13 page Genetics Lab that is due tomorrow. AH! I just had to vent. (better get back to that lab) :-(